This journey is not for the faint of heart.

Tonight was a challenge. I try not to make my family HAVE to stick to only the things that I can eat. After all, food and over eating is not there struggle it is mine. Just as we make our peanut/treenut allergy son live in a non peanut/treenut free world so too, I, must live in a non bread stick free world. This past month I've learned to say no a lot. No, to the cheesecake desert offered to me. No, to the dips and chips, no to the pizza and no to the tortillas. But this was my first encounter with the garlic, doughy, carb filled goodness that is a bread stick.  I'd love to sit here and tell you that I conquered that battle. That I took one whiff and declared it wasn't worth it. But I can't. I ate 2 whole bread sticks and you know what?  I enjoyed them. I enjoyed them so much I really wanted to go back for 2 or 3 more. I LOVE BREAD! I seriously want to believe that God will have a room for me at his table and in front of me he will place a huge pile of the most d...

I started this blog because I just needed a place to go to get all the negative crappy feelings out. A place where I'm not being judged and I can just be honest about the struggle that is morbid obesity and the difficulties in losing the weight. Truthfully, I don't think anyone wakes up one day and decides to become morbidly obese. When I was a child a persons weight never even crossed my mind as something that needed to be considered. I ate food the same way any kid my age would eat food. However, reflecting I do think there were some childhood things that I think played a roll in aiding me to eventually become morbidly obese. An example of a habit that was hard for me to break was being taught that I had to eat all the food on my plate. As well as being served portions that were way too big for my body and age. I see how much my kids eat today and I realize that I was made to feel like I had to eat portions 2x the size. This became a habit in my adult life that was super di...